....that is the question. Christmas used to be my favorite time of year. I loved the holiday festivities, the decorations, the hustle and bustle, the shopping for perfect gifts, the family parties, the excitement of Christmas morning. Don't get me wrong, I still love parts of the Christmas holiday. It's lost a lot of it's sparkle since my divorce a year and a half ago. I hate to say it, but sometimes I feel like a scrooge. I dread the holidays....and as it nears closer, I dread it even more. Last year I didn't put up a tree or any decorations, I pretended it didn't exist (at least in my house it didn't). Bah Humbug! If I had my choice, I would've gone into hibernation and skipped Christmas altogether. I hate holidays in general...they're not a pleasant time for me, but Christmas is THE hardest.
I'm trying to have a better attitude this year....though I fall short most days. I'm trying to get into the mood and excitement of the season. Maybe pretending and putting on a happy face shows some sort of effort? This past weekend I put away my Thanksgiving decorations and have started getting out Christmas. I figure maybe if I do a small amount each day....I might be able to get it all accomplished without having a complete breakdown. I might even have my parents over later this week to help with the tree. Sometimes the thought of it all is too overwhelming. I'm hoping to get through most of the season without too many tears. Maybe somehow I'll make it a merry Christmas this year after all.
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You can do it -- and you will. You are getting stronger all the time!
I have always loved Christmas but before I was married it got too hard to hang around. I tried to focus on the true meaning of Christmas. With that I eventually started talking my friends into going on trips over the actual holiday. That way I still got the enjoyment out of the decorations and music and the spirit but the memories of a great trip for Christmas!
Kim
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