Have you ever wondered why life turns out the way that it does? Why sometimes no matter what we want and what we feel is best for us, it doesn't always go that way? Why it can't just be easier? Sometimes it seems like life is going great, everything is going our way, everything is going smoothly, when BAM....it takes us in a completely unexpected direction. This new path just might be the best way after all, make us happiest in the end. But of course we fight it, we don't like change, we don't want it, it's too painful, it's too frightening, it's too lonely and unknown....whatever. It's so hard to see the end result of any of our choices and decisions in this life.
I like immediate gratification. I want what I want now, today, this moment. I have a hard time waiting, knowing my happiness or wants will come sometime in the future. It seems unfair that some people seem to have everything that I want, yet take it for granted or don't seem grateful. I don't feel like I'm that horrible of a person not to deserve such things. I know I've made plenty of mistakes and wrong choices in my life, but know that I'm at least trying or working towards correcting and righting some of these wrongs.
It is hard to see the end of my path....since it's so far away. I do get discouraged and frustrated when it seems like I'm trying and yet keep falling and feel like I have to start all over again. I'm grateful for Sundays and being able to go to church and get that added boost and optimism to help me through the rest of my week.
I am grateful for the family and friends in my life that have helped me get where I am today. Even through all of my good and bad moments, I have such wonderful friends who have not left my side in my moments of need. In times of greatest trial there are always things and people that I am blessed with.
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It's so hard to see the end from the beginning -- that's one of the (few) things I am loving about being older: the ability to look back and see why Heavenly Father's hand pushed us in one way or another. The comforting thing for me is to know that His hand is always there.
It's so true what you have said. Life isn't always easy. You know if you keep praying and doing what you need to do you will get to the end of the tunnel. I am here is you need me and I know you already know that. I hope your trial will come to an end soon. Love ya Mel!
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