Life is.....

Have you ever wondered why life turns out the way that it does? Why sometimes no matter what we want and what we feel is best for us, it doesn't always go that way? Why it can't just be easier? Sometimes it seems like life is going great, everything is going our way, everything is going smoothly, when BAM....it takes us in a completely unexpected direction. This new path just might be the best way after all, make us happiest in the end. But of course we fight it, we don't like change, we don't want it, it's too painful, it's too frightening, it's too lonely and unknown....whatever. It's so hard to see the end result of any of our choices and decisions in this life.

I like immediate gratification. I want what I want now, today, this moment. I have a hard time waiting, knowing my happiness or wants will come sometime in the future. It seems unfair that some people seem to have everything that I want, yet take it for granted or don't seem grateful. I don't feel like I'm that horrible of a person not to deserve such things. I know I've made plenty of mistakes and wrong choices in my life, but know that I'm at least trying or working towards correcting and righting some of these wrongs.

It is hard to see the end of my path....since it's so far away. I do get discouraged and frustrated when it seems like I'm trying and yet keep falling and feel like I have to start all over again. I'm grateful for Sundays and being able to go to church and get that added boost and optimism to help me through the rest of my week.

I am grateful for the family and friends in my life that have helped me get where I am today. Even through all of my good and bad moments, I have such wonderful friends who have not left my side in my moments of need. In times of greatest trial there are always things and people that I am blessed with.

Monday....Ugh!

I always find Sunday nights to be depressing. Why, you may ask? Because the next day is Monday, the start of a new, long week. Awful things always seem to happen to me Sunday nights. I might have an emotional meltdown, I might have horrible, terrible nightmares, I might not be tired and go to bed way to late, I might wake up in the middle of the night and be unable to go back to sleep, I might have many or all of these things happen. No matter what I do to prepare myself for a Monday, the night before is always awful! I rarely get enough sleep Sunday night. I rarely wake up having enough rest (and pay for it the rest of the week). What do you say to skipping Mondays, and starting the week out with Tuesday?

Halloween

Halloween is a week away and I have No idea what I'm going to dress up as. Being a teacher, I have to dress up every year and participate in the Halloween parade at school (not my favorite). Last year I was a biker chick, the year before I think I was an army girl. So, what should I be this year? I need something easy and quick. I could be a biker chick again....but is that boring? I could be a farmer, or a baby....or something really simple. What do you think? I need your help!

Remodeling

I'm redoing my shower in the master bathroom and I'm SO excited! I've done a few changes since moving into my town home and I'm loving it! I changed the carpet, painted the floorboards and touched up paint here and there (thanks to help from my dad), got a new sink in my kitchen, door knobs and pulls on the kitchen and bathroom cabinets.

I have 2 bathrooms, the guest bathroom and the one off of my master bedroom of course. Both bathrooms have the tub/shower combination, which is great when it comes to wanting a bath (though I do wish it was a bit deeper so I could actually fit into it). Both showers are made out of that fake, plastic, hollowy stuff that feels like it's going to break if I'm not careful and it's crap to clean, since it won't ever really come clean. I've decided to rip it all out and put in a tiled shower (since I still will have the guest bathroom to use as a bath). I picked out the tile with my mom and got it ordered last week. Hooray! It's going to be so great when it's finished. I will have to post pictures. The work will probably begin the first part of November. I'm not exactly looking forward to the mess and the pain of waiting for it to be finished. In the meantime, I will be using the shower in the guest bathroom (hooray for 2 bathrooms) However, I know it'll look great when completed! Yay!

Already Gone

Why is it that I can relate to songs like this? It's such a sad/pretty song and I cry my eyes out every time I hear it. I love it, but it makes me sad at the same time. It's strange sometimes how some pain in life never completely goes way. Time may heal me physically, and sometimes I may have a pretty believable happy face but emotionally it feels like I've got a huge scar that will always be there. Don't want to have a whine fest, just wanted to share this song.

I'm an Aunt!

My brother, Mike, and his wife, Natalee, had a little baby girl this morning at about 3am. They named her Lexi Michaela Secrist. Very cute! In the meantime I hope Natalee is getting some much needed rest (okay, you too Mike) Love you guys!

My Birthday

This past Saturday was my birthday. Another year older, too bad we don't get younger. :) I had a fabulous day! It all started out with sleeping in....woo hoo, one of my favorite things to do. I went to lunch with a great friend to Applebees (again woo hoo) and we caught up on all of our news. We then headed over to a boutique where another friend of mine (shout out to Nicole) had a booth. I bought myself a much needed birthday present. Love my new necklace! That evening I saw Harry Potter for the 2nd time (love, love, love that movie) and ate Subway sandwiches.

I want to thank everyone for making my birthday a special one! Thanks for all of the birthday calls, texts, etc. I feel very blessed to have such great family and friends. Love you all!

Disneyland

I've been slacking on my blog lately, and haven't updated it for a while. We went to Disneyland September 4th for a week, while I was off track, and we all had a great time. Well, other than my getting a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad sunburn! Ugh! My 2nd day there we went to the beach and I burned my legs pretty bad. To the point where I couldn't stand, or walk without crying and being in excruciating pain! But, besides that fabulous experience, the rest of the trip went pretty well. I was able to spend 2 days (maybe more like 1 and 1/2 considering I moved so slow with my sunburn and swollen feet) in Disneyland and had some great seafood (yum!) and character dining in the park. I think I'm ready to go back again, anyone wanna go with me? :)