My Soap Box

If you haven't been through a divorce you can't fully understand the emotional, physical, and mental pain you experience. I appreciate everyone who's tried to be sympathetic, and been a listening ear to my traumas. I have wonderful friends and family who have been there for me when I've needed them and been unable to hold myself up. This post is about my frustrations and annoyances with those that don't understand or even try to understand. So if you don't want to hear me on my soap box skip to the next post.

I think I might lose it the next time someone tells me how thankful I must be that I don't have any children cause it would be so much worse. Have you been in a divorce? No, so don't preach to me. I realize there are many factors that could make a divorce "worse". However, a divorce is "worse" in itself. Just because I don't have children and I was the one to want the divorce doesn't make it an easy thing to go through. I still struggle with things everyday. Some days are definitely harder than others and I do still have days filled with pain and tears. Yes, having children would add an extra hard thing to deal with and yes, I am glad that I don't have children in this situation. But I do want children and a family in my life. I'm not quite as young as I used to be, and I feel these hopes and dreams are fading fast. I'm not trying to be pessimistic, it's just reality. I'm 31 years old, I don't have a lot of child bearing years left. I know there are always wonderful opportunities for adoption, which I think is so fantastic. I'm not opposed to adoption, but I would at least like the chance to try getting pregnant before looking at other choices. If you made it this far in reading, I commend you. And thanks for sticking through it.