Hate Mondays

I feel like such a whiner sometimes. I'm sure you read my blog and think, oh my gosh!! How boring and pathetic is this girl?! Seriously though, I've already come to terms with that. Today is one of my Crap days. I've been having so many good days recently, I guess it was about time for a downer.

I didn't sleep well last night, tossed and turned, had strange dreams that kept waking me up, was too hot, then too cold...etc. etc. I woke up this morning and started crying, definitely not a great way to start out my day. I seriously considered calling my mom while I was getting ready (I hate being alone when I cry). It helps sometimes to just talk to someone on the phone, or have someone over to keep me company, ya know?

Tonight we're celebrating my dad's and Natalee's (my brother's wife) birthdays. We're going up the canyons for a bbq. Sounds fun, right? Well, I'm not so much in the mood for it. Holidays are hard for me, I shouldn't be complaining because this isn't really a holiday like Christmas, Thanksgiving, etc. that really really suck, but it's still hard to celebrate things on my own right now. I feel like such a loser sometimes when I whine or complain about things, or even when I start crying randomly and uncontrollably. Thanks for putting up with me and for those of you that actually made it through reading this post. What great friends you are!