I've never really understood before what people that go through a divorce deal with. Granted, mine it "easier" I guess you could say than some others. I always had the twisted illusion that when a marriage came to divorce, you pretty much fell out of love, life sucked, but since you didn't really love him anymore life wasn't so bad after all. Why is it that because I had such a contorted view on marriage/divorce I had to learn the "hard core reality" stuff first hand?
I know that something isn't always better than nothing. That something better be darn worth my time and effort to make it worth my while. I've learned that I don't need to put up with crap and forever be the "fix-it man/woman" just to survive a mediocre life. I deserve the best and that's what I'm going to get.
Last I checked until a divorce is final you probably shouldn't be dating others. Am I wrong here? I don't know, maybe once again I'm reverting to my twisted, contorted views, but I know for me anyway, that I wouldn't feel comfortable, let alone want to be with others while still married, especially since I still love the jerk, don't ask me why. Heck, the idea of the dating world again is quite frightening and unappealing at the moment. But then again, maybe I'm of the minority. Maybe most people get over minor life changing experiences, say like marriage, a lot quicker than I do. Maybe I better get my head checked for some sort of concussion I'm unaware of.
Well, I think I've been on my soap box enough for one night. I think I'll go hunt up a punching bag (too bad certain people's heads aren't in range), get a little workout and head off to beddie bye. Goodnight all.
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5 comments:
i agree with you, dating before the divorce is final seems...weird. not quite right. hooray for you for doing it right!
Hang in there, Mel. It sounds like this has been a really hard time period for you (well, duh!) -- but you're well on your way to getting through it. Just take the time you need and remember that you are worth the best. You really are.
Hey Mel, I know you will get through it just fine. I know you might have some hard times. But, look at this way, you will be much happier. I think we need to get together here soon.
You have had a rough year, but you will find someone who is worth it! Luckily you have good family and friends to support you. Hang in there!
Just hang in there, the right man is sure to come your way.
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