Mary Kay Consultant

I am such a HUGE fan of Mary Kay! I have been using most of their products for a few years now. If you saw my makeup collection you would probably laugh....trust me, most people do. I've tried just about everything they have to offer, and I love, love, love it! After talking with some family and friends I decided it would be worth my time and effort to start selling it, considering I use so much.

I'm not going to be the pushy, pressure type of consultant, I hate people like that. I'm probably not going to have parties or do anything of that kind at the time, but if any of my fellow bloggers are interested in getting some products or have questions of any sort I'd be happy to help. So please, contact me if you're ever interested. I would never sell anything that I don't absolutely love myself!

Fablehaven Book 5

I'm SO excited for the final Fablehaven, Keys to the Demon Prison to come out on March 23rd. You can bet I will be pre-ordering this one. I have all of the previous Fablehavens and am in love with them all! I hope the new one doesn't disappoint. I am a little sad the series will be ending, but I guess all good things must come to an end eventually. So if you haven't read them, you better get on that!

I'm Done!

Parent teacher conferences are over. Yay! This week was so crazy! It was definitely nice having Monday off for the holiday, but then it seemed there was so much to do on Tuesday to get ready for conferences. I only had one no show appointment on Wednesday (I sort of expected that one). Thursday was my shorter night, I was out of here by 6:00. That was the best feeling ever! I do still miss when conferences were on Thursday and Friday, which would mean no school the next day. Lucky traditional teachers get the Friday after conferences off....yeah, NOT us! I woke up this morning and somehow dragged myself out of bed. I'm trying my best to stay awake and might be tempted to have a Dr. Pepper with my lunch today. :) Wish me luck.

Todays Musings

Have you ever thought about why it seems some people have the perfect life? I did say, "seems", since who knows what really goes on behind closed doors. Some people were shocked upon hearing of my divorce, some were fantastic and loyal friends sticking by my side through it all. I have truly appreciated all of the love and support I have received before, during, and after my marriage.

To say I got a divorce, or my marriage didn't work out is a huge understatement. I said this before and I'll say it again, I never truly understood divorce until I experienced it first hand. Everyone who has been through a divorce can relate in many ways, yet everyone has their own diverse, and painful experience. I can't believe I have been divorced for a year and half. Sure I have lonely, crappy, pathetic moments where I just want to disappear, but being able to focus on my happiness and my personal worth has been greater than I could ever have imagined.

My life was a living Hell from the week following our marriage throughout the rest of our 3 years together. Every day seemed to be the worst it could possibly be, yet the following day would always top it. Who was this man that I married? Sure, we had our good days....maybe a few times a week to start, which dwindled and became farther apart. I'd never felt so worthless, put down and emotionally abused. Of course I was led to believe something was wrong with me, and everything that happened was always my fault. I admit I was starting to question if something WAS wrong with me.....if you hear something enough times, don't you start to believe it?

I didn't know what was normal or unacceptable behavior anymore.....I felt like I had been flipped upside down so many times I didn't know which way was up. Looking back on things I have such a different perspective on it all, yet when you're living it, it's so hard to see things the way you would as an outsider. I had become so emotionally beaten down and discouraged I was living in survival mode. I wasn't me, I didn't really exist. I went through the motions of life, but I wasn't living. Luckily for me, I had great family and friends that would assure me that I was worth something, and deserved the best in every aspect of my life.

I hate that I don't trust men in general, and I'm sorry for those of you that receive my doubting questions or random rants. I hate that I don't want to get close enough or love someone enough to let them hurt me.....and if you do ever hurt me I will physically beat you! I hate that I feel I have a huge scar on my heart that will never completely heal. I hate that I don't feel normal, but what is normal anyway?

I didn't really know how this post was going to turn out until I started writing it. My blog is sort of like a journal to me (since I'm horrible about writing in one) and it seems you lucky readers get to hear the good, the bad, and the ugly. :)

Free Giveaway!

Free giveaway.....Cutie Pie apron and vinyl lettering "Kiss the Cook" plate. Click here to enter.

Already?

I definitely don't blog as often as I should. But then again, I don't really have that exciting of a life to have enough things to blog about. I can't believe it's already the middle of February. I can't believe tomorrow is our Valentine's party at school. I'm SO thankful for a fabulous room mom, that has planned everything and coordinated all the volunteers so I have nothing to worry about. I haven't had a room mom in years, and have sort of been used to doing everything and anything myself. What a nice change it is to have a few less things to worry about. Sometimes it's the little things that seem to make a huge difference, right?

Have I mentioned that my shower is officially finished (I hope)? As of last week the glass door is now installed, and all of the annoying mistakes have been fixed (I think). Yay! I'm so sick of workmen coming in and out of my house and never feeling settled. It's so great to have a huge shower and enjoy a little relaxation every now and then.